My mother has hated me right from the womb and I wished that she had aborted the pregnancy. That would have saved us all these pain I am in. People will always tell me to be happy that I was born, but I can never be.
Was it my fault that that my mother was raped at 16?
Was it my fault her parents were pastors and they didn’t allow her abort?
Why do I have to take the blames for everything?
She blames me for ruining her life and for my father's mistakes and I wonder how that is my fault?
See, I didn’t know she was even my mother until I was 10 because I stayed with my grandmother since I was born and I called her sister Kemi like her younger siblings do because I thought she was my sister.
When she was getting married, she came home to tell her mother that she would never tell her husband that she was my mother and that was when I heard that.
I found out about the rape when I was 14, my grandmother had died and I had moved to my mother’s house with her husband and by now she has had 3 children and I was the slave. She has no forgiving spirit.
Just let me tell you one of the things that eat me up the most. One day, I was molested by a neighbor and I came crying to her, to my greatest surprise all she could do was yell at me and made terrible statements. She even said that I was reaping the seed that my father planted.
Her husband never knew that she was my mother and whenever she maltreated me in his presence, he was my protector and at some pointed I was maltreated because she accused me of seducing her husband.
I am 30 with no certificate, no handwork and nowhere to go. She sent me parking today as her husband died a month ago. I think the best thing to do is to do what they couldn’t do years ago and that is to end the trace of my father’s sin.
I need your help @Exola.TV. This is the reason why I have reached out to you.
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